especially if you have a strong dedication, something you deeply believe in that keeps you going. Also it would be great if you were doing an outward Bound all-alone-in-nature type trip, where you can be all alone out in the wilderness.
Because that is what you’re going to need: periods of being separate to go over your whole life and ask yourself what the hell are you doing.
Periodically we have to go off by ourselves, curl up behind a toilet like a hiding cat. This is a purely existential moment when, even if you are at the height of your youth and beauty, and your fans are crawling all over each other to get a selfie with you, or your grandkids are crawling all over your lap, it’s still time to reevaluate your life and contemplate eternity, and for that you need moment of solitude.
This can be contemplation in its deepest form—otherwise it will seem as if you’re falling apart at the seams..
The change of this nature takes time and guts so you have to adopt a cosmic attitude. You don’t want to just enjoy your descent into madness or get lost in grief—of course not. You have the right to find your own joy and self discovery and achieve divine grace for yourself.
And remember this sometimes there just isn’t one right answer and you have to live not knowing what’s right and what’s smart. You just have to let go of the outcome.